Try try again--a testimonial of workplace perseverance, results forthcoming

You've heard it before.  True failure only occurs when we stop trying.  This article is meant to encourage myself as well as you, my readers.  The point of trying is of course because we really want something to happen as a result.

Those who know me well, know that I have a disability.  One that rears its ugly head from time to time and keeps me from functioning in almost every way.  In the worst times, I need constant care and attention paid to keep me eating and drinking and showering and in the house.  In those times, our baby goes to grandma's house and if necessary, I go to the hospital.

That so being, I am very thankful when I have medicine that is working and a job that I have kept and been loyal to enough that I would hope there is some security in it, even maybe room for promotion.

As a relatively new mom, I have also been really focusing on improving myself, and I see the values at my job as a vehicle for improvement, and even a measurement of self growth as evaluations are passed on to us.  Ideally, values and skills learned at work will be carried into the home.   For example, the value of owning our area and our role which is part of my work's value system would enable me to establish a sense of ownership and organization at home.

As the more I learn of my workplace cultural values and recognize the value of doing business and relating to the people of my own community-- which I am blessed to live and work in currently--so do I desire to continue to persevere at my workplace and excel not only as a company but as one who truly cares about the concerns of the people of our community, people who are my customers, and people who are my neighbors.

And so that is why I consistently go back to my job after being forced to leave by this disability and sometimes--as it has this year--after quite embarrassing actions left in the wake of my departure.  Still I have returned and will not give up on this job as it has proved quite beneficial and even enjoyable for me.

And I have good reason to hope for even better benefits with this job in the future.  For even though I have a disability, I am blessed that medicine usually works for me and I have other ideas how I can improve my health both at work and at home and out and about.  For before I got married, though not thoroughly healthy as far as values and focus goes, I was quite well for work and school for a period of 6 years until I had my baby which led me to grow and run into disability all in the same couple of years that I've had her.  I guarantee you I am a better person on the other side.

Love has increased inside of me for everyone I see, and I get to focus on this especially at work.  In fact it is as a front cashier that I am learning to love better, express empathy more, even work on getting names and faces familiarized--(which I've newly learned importance of and have been quite weak on in the past, when it came to customers).

And so I WILL keep working my day job, and I WILL improve and I WILL carry those improvements home and in my daily life.  THIS year I will persevere and grow.  Maybe next year will bring even more promise.  I WILL not give up.  GOD WILLING people WILL begin to know the real me, not the messed up me, but the constantly IMPROVING me, the LOVING me, the NONJUDGMENTAL me, and the NON-NOSY me.